Day 23: Feb 23

Wow. What a day.

It started off with yoga, which I hated, I mean HATED.  I couldn't do the stretches, my breathing was off, my balance sucked, and I looked around at everyone else and saw that they were doing better than me which is exactly what you're not supposed to do but I did it, and judged myself and walked out of there thinking, Kelly.  You suck at yoga.  So, I went to breakfast, got my bowl of cereal, and being the sporadically emotional person that I am, I burst into tears.  I was walking out of the dining hall to get some private time when I ran into Jane Esselstyn, the awesome sister of Rip who is hilarious and irreverent and smart.  She stopped me and said, "What's wrong?  Did something happen at home?"

"No, no. I went to yoga.  I sucked at it."

She kinda smiled and shrugged and said, "Yoga's hard."

I said, "I know, and I'm being hard on myself, I don't like that I'm not good at it, I was thinking of my athletic family and me not doing well at yoga and all of a sudden I got emotional, and I know it's ridiculous and I'm just having a very emotional week and--"

Then Jane said, "Listen, I'm a nurse.  You're expressing yourself well.  You have good color in your cheeks.  You look great.  You're fine.  And I come from a f***cking athletic family (Dad, Olympic medal, Rip, Triathlete, Medalist) and I know what that's like.  But you can do it, you'll be fine, yoga's not for everyone, maybe take a different class.  You're fine."

And then I was fine.

And since I completely blew out my legs with the crossfit workout, I can't really do that class tomorrow.  And the hilly hike workout option also sounds like a nightmare as every step really hurts.  This means I'm probably going to have to do yoga tomorrow.

HA.  IRONY.

Whatever.  I can't be as bad as I was today.  Or maybe I will be.  But at least I'll approach with a sense of humor. 

One more thing:  go to this website.  Forks Over Knives  Watch this trailer.  It will be coming to AMC, Regal and Landmark Movie Theaters. I saw it tonight as a special preview.  I'd happily see it again with anyone who wanted to see it!  IT'S GOING TO BE PLAYING KENDALL SQUARE CINEMA IN CAMBRIDGE MASS ON MAY 13!  And the cool thing is--it's about SCIENCE.  Not speculation or fads or media or gurus or anything like that.  Science.  All the people in it are my mentors in this journey and it's an exciting film that will blow the lid off some things, I think.  I hope. 

Ohhhhh man, one more thing.  I've started to eat MUCH less these last couple of days here.  And I'm feeling VERY full still.  Greens, man.  A huge gigantic plate of greens and a vegetable based soup to start lunch and dinner.  It's going to shave off crazy pounds.  I'm so excited about it.

Now, I'm excited for sleep!